Others said that it was God’s wisdom for us to have more time to serve Him. Some members said that it was the Father’s will for us not to have children, and we needed to accept it. Our elders spoke kind words to us and showed concern for our situation, but they did not receive a vision or a word of knowledge from the Lord to give to us. My perspective changed, however, when I decided to reach out to the older, more experienced believers in my denomination to help us receive a miracle. My wife and I had been content in our denomination where love, holiness, and knowledge of the Word of God were the focus. They promote a believers’ ego but do nothing beneficial for a person’s spirit and may even harm one’s spiritual growth. As in, these so-called prophecies make someone feel awesome about themselves but are from the soul and even devilish.
We had general impressions or thoughts about Pentecostals such as, “speaking in tongues may be from the devil,” “false prophecies,” and “deceived by evil spirits.” I even heard accusations about the prophetic movement that said prophecies catered to self or ego. I later came to understand this meant Christ intended for the gift of prophecy to continue.įor many years though, and like many other persons in evangelical churches, my wife and I had no interest or knowledge in Pentecostal or Charismatic things.
Jesus appeared to me in a vision during a conference and told me he would return after the body of Christ had been built up. In fact, I only knew of such things because of an encounter I had years with Jesus years before. I desired supernatural healing and to hear prophetic words, but up until this point in my life, I had not had many encounters with miracles or prophecy. I began to consider that maybe the Lord had another way of fixing our barrenness. When my wife and I reached the point of hopelessness, I decided that I would pray every day until God healed us. Shortly after, I bought a one-way ticket to the USA and this began a new life for me. Before I came to the USA, I met the Lord during my first year of graduate school. Even our house was built on a former Buddhist temple. My father was an atheist, my mother was a devout follower of Buddha, and my grandparents worshipped another local idol. I am Chinese and was born and raised in China to a family that worshiped Buddha and other gods. This was not always my approach to life, however. I felt completely hopeless when our egg donor bailed at the last minute.īeing a Christian, the only thing I knew to do was turn to God. In desperation, we tried an egg donor too.
Our doctor assured us that the only way to have a baby was through an egg donor. I hit my lowest point when our doctor announced we would never be able to have a baby through natural means. When we tried Chinese herbal remedies, they too were fruitless. Top medical professionals were treating us, but all their attempts failed. From 2010 to 2014, we attempted in vitro fertilization (IVF) five times. We realized something was wrong when we were not getting pregnant without prevention. We wanted a child, but we simply could not have one. In 2015, however, we also approached 10 years of barrenness. In 2006, my wife and I married and like many other Chinese couples, we had every intention of building a family. By 2015, I had been in the United States for 13 years and a Christian for the same amount of time.
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